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so I you call over to ask a question about finances. I couldn't use one of the cards and was worried it was hacked. Your answer to me was it's full. Ya so. We have no money until Friday. I waited to talk to you d during a commercial. You act like I ran over your dog. You complain about it being to hot and you are dressed in warm dress clothes. When I ask why you are dressed up you say it's the only cloths that fit. You haven't gained weight in the last few months. You went shopping for clothes last week.... What gives, why didn't you get jeans too? I ask if you are blowing me of because the game is back on, you answer partly. You really don't get that you aren't being nice..... I only asked about finances because I don't want to get hacked, you treat me like ' what the heel, I didn't expect this talk. How could you.' I was worried. Guess I shouldn't be. We have no money. We won't have money. I can't ask questions. I just piss you off regardless of what I do. merry Christmas

hmmm

if you always leave yourself an out
where does that leave me

Another holiday over

Thanksgiving has come and gone.  Wonderful time with the family and friends.  Best part is NO shopping on Thanksgiving or Black Friday.  Did that last year, what a waste, nothing that we needed or wanted and the 1 big item I got needed the tires replaced 3 times before summer was over.  This year that is not going to happen, no trying to get that 1 item that you think the kids need and can't live without.  They've been without it all year and probably all their life. They don't have to have me out of the house on a holiday to get something they can't life without.  Thankfully our kids are stuck on name brands and material items.  None of them have t.v.s in their room. No gaming systems set up in there either.  Toys (mostly non-electronic) yes, but Wii, PS3, DVD, T.V. NO!  Actually I think they have more books then toys even.  Speaking of books, they all have Kindles from last Christmas (from my mom) and guess what... they are sitting on a shelf not being used.  These kids prefer the hard copy of a book to electronics.  Books don't have a Black Friday special, probably because they are already a great price.  As a matter of fact other than the quiet time between relative visits they didn't even pull out the cell phones or DS games.
Even now, the only reason we are going out this weekend is for groceries, car checks, work, and school events.  We would all rather spend time together at home then trying to fight the crowds for stuff we don't need.

so much to say so much to do.....

No time
No time for me

Snatch a moment here
a second there

coffee while you're sleeping
firelight peace

movement of waking souls
waking to a busy day

a life full of hope
dreams and fears

No time to regret
Good morning

Updating?? Ya right!

Well that didn't work.

Ok, not sure what I'm going to do with this place but I should do something.

Back from Venture Crew white water rafting trip last weekend. Little man is at Boy Scout resident camp this week.  Little lady is working with her troop at Tall Ships to earn money for our troop. Big lady is working on getting license and learning how to fix her car. :)

Mom is good, married to a nice man (can't say good since he's not dad, but still better than the last one) and living in  little closer, although just a difficult to visit with.

J and me are good. Although I really need to work on my communication skills where he is concerned. And boy am I glad he doesn't read this blog.

Guess that's it. Hope the next post isn't a year away.