Saturday, March 20, 2010

What a day

now I remember why I don't ready everyone's posts, either here in blogland or on facebook. I really do have a hard time with other people's problems.
You're having a hard day? I feel your pain and wish there was some way I can help
You're mad at me for what I said or did? I want nothing more then to fix it and make you love me again
You're hurting and crying and scared? I want to jump in my car or on a plane and hold you till you feel better
But I can't. I can't do any of those things, I'm stuck here taking care of my family, raising my kids, and living as best as I can. Reading others posts makes me realize just how great I have it, which only depresses me and makes me wish I could help you have a great life too.

Today I drove Jess to Rainbow to see her doc. Seeing her coughing and hurting, I just wanted to yell at the doc to fix her. But he can't, nobody can. CF sucks.

I read my sister's latest blog post. I want to hold her and tell her that its all ok, but I can't. Life is such that we don't see each other but once a year if we are lucky.

Damn it, I hate it when I get this way. Life sucks sometimes.... Now to put on the happy face, go to work and smile.

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